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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

11.06.2025 06:03

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

I was scared of men, in general

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

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But im dying ,and its too late for me.

Especially a lifetime of it.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

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He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

How much stronger is an average man than an average woman?

I have no regrets .

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

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Who then, do I blame.?

Ive learnt so much.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

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Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

But it wasn’t much.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

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And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

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As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

My mum and dad in the seventies!

I waited trembling.

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Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

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Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Where did Noah build the Ark? Was it in a desert or near water?

They are buried together, in the same grave..

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

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Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

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I write beautiful poetry .

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

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He was dying to do it , i knew.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

She loved him until the end.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

She was in good health!

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

On the 31st of Jan this month .

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

I think the readers, may guess!

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

I could never make a relationship work though!

Would this be the day?

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

So, i spoilt her more .

He resisted the act ,that day.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

I couldn’t, believe it.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Was to survive, this bastard.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

But, we were locked up after school.

So whats the point in blame.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

It was going to be , some day.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

What did i know ?

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

My family never makes their pension either.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

My life is so biszare .

We were not on the streets..

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

One cannot live in the past .

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

(And it was in our own minds.)

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

Why did i forgive my father ?

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

I did it because my mum asked me too!

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

She wouldn,t have been !

Where the ultimate outsiders.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

And i lived it daily.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

He knew the spot.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

The only rule us 5 kids had .

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

All the time i was locked up.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Im still living with it.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

I said to her

I was seconnd youngest,

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I never cut or harmed myself..

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

I was very sick at this time too.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Comes on , in middle age.

This is soul school!.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

I will be 64.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

I was 9 years of age.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

When she asked me how she looked .

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

We all went to grammer schools

She found it foreign!.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

But ive been too sick for many years..

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

As i do to all so called friends.?

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

I don,t even have a pension.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

She married twice! .

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Put me off passion for life!!

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.